Bipolar disorder or manic–depressive disorder, also referred to as bipolar affective disorder or manic depression, is a psychiatric diagnosis that describes a category of mood disorders defined by the presence of one or more episodes of abnormally elevated energy levels, cognition, and mood with or without one or more depressive episodes. The elevated moods are clinically referred to as mania or, if milder, hypomania. Individuals who experience manic episodes also commonly experience depressive episodes, or symptoms, or a mixed state in which features of both mania and depression are present at the same time.[2] These events are usually separated by periods of “normal” mood; but, in some individuals, depression and mania may rapidly alternate, which is known as rapid cycling. Extreme manic episodes can sometimes lead to such psychotic symptoms as delusions and hallucinations. The disorder has been subdivided into bipolar I, bipolar II, cyclothymia, and other types, based on the nature and severity of mood episodes experienced; the range is often described as the bipolar spectrum.

-wikipedia (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bipolar_disorder)

This is how wikipedia describe Bipolar disorder and since the day I heard about this kind of psychological illness, I never doubted myself that I may have this. I remembered once that I was watching a television show, there comes a singer whose daughter is suffering from what she called a bipolar disorder. At first, I was thinking she was referring to a two different poles of the earth, the south and the north poles or it can be also a magnet with a positive and negative poles. It was just funny thinking that way not knowing that this is something that needs to be addressed and be given attention because it may destroy one’s life if not cured or not known in the early stage. So what I did, I tried to self-asses myself (which I really love doing) but then, I never find time to research further because it might only be another delusion and paranoia of myself.

In this blog, I will be recounting my past and daily manic-depressive episodes that made me realize that truly, there was something wrong with myself.